Tonight's subject was cute, geeky, awkward, fairly inexperienced, bearded, chubby, mentally somewhat unstable... In short, they were just my type (for good and bad). Whilst they were fairly male-presenting, they told me they were non-binary and uncomfortable with strongly gendered phrases like "good boy" used during play. So whilst I don't know their pronouns for sure, I'm defaulting to they/them just to be on the safe side. I'm naming them Foodie.
We played in the corner of a room while someone else played in the same room. That was distracting for both of us, but we managed. They didn't have much experience and seemed super nervous, so I wasn't sure how well we'd communicate during play.. But that was absolutely no problem at all. They grew almost completely non-verbal, but through body langue and signs, communications still flowed really well.
I managed to discover some of their major kinks, and they ended up in a little, shivering ball on the floor in the end. They also went into "sub mode" very quickly, but I didn't dare letting them get really deep. I kept stopping us both, taking short breaks, so they wouldn't go down too far. I think they'd prefer fewer interruptions so they could go deeper into sub mode, but I felt responsible for their safety and didn't dare let them slip too far away from me. I know they have trust issues, but trusting me didn't seem to be much of a problem for them. At least not for the things we did tonight.
I stopped our session with still almost 30 minutes to go. I gave them 10 minutes to get somewhat coherent and out if sub space, and then another 10 minutes of careful chatting, petting and untying rope. By then, there was less than 10 minutes left. Just enough to exchange a few hugs and make them promise to message me when they get home. This means we got approximately 20 minutes of talk/negotiation, 40 minutes play and 30 minutes aftercare..
But that just ISN'T enough aftercare. I HATE having to leave someone like that. Not just for them, but for me. I want to talk through the session with them, while it's still super fresh. I want to help them land. I want to make sure they're ok. Not being able to take care of the other person... Even though they're probably fine and have no problem handling this... I hate it.
Still, even with that ending it was worth it. I had fun. I think they had fun. I'd love to play with them again at some other party.
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