Monday, May 21, 2012

Cock bondage and sensory deprivation

T and I had sex this weekend. He knows how much I love lazy morning sex, but he's usually not in the mood just after waking up. Well, this weekend was an exception, and it was very nice. I hope for more exceptions. :P

Sunday, Tight came over. I hadn't played with him for two weeks, and was getting restless. He wasn't quite in the right headspace, too much private stuff going on in his life these days. I tried to distract him as best as I could, and although he definitly enjoyed himself, I felt as though he wasn't all "there". Not much I can do about that, really, other than work with what I have.

He'd asked if we could try something I'd posted in my Tumblr stream, and I was happy to comply. Using only ropes, I placed him in a hogtie similar to this (illustration picture):
He loved it. After gaging and blindfolding him, I just sat there and listened to him moan. It was lovely. Ofcourse, a hogtie might be great for the sub, but it does eventually get a bit bornig for me. He's lying on all the good bits, after all. So I turned him around, still tied, and teased him for a while. Later on, we tried a similar position, but with the legs together.

After a break, we went back and played some more. He was getting pretty worn out, so I placed him on his side in a fetal position. Tied his legs together, his arms together and attached to the legs. A rope from his collar and down to his legs forced his neck down and in. Gag and blindfold, as before. However, for the first time I also tried removing another sense: His hearing. I made him listen to music, which didn't remove all sense of the outside world, but dulled the outside world to a pont where it could more easily be ignored. I had him listen to the sountrack to the new Jessie James movie, made by Nick Cave and Warren Ellis. It's lovely, calm instumental music. No distubing vocals anywhere.

Not having slept much the previous night, Tight fell asleep. He was SO adorable lying there. :) I didn't let him sleep for long. It was good  to know he can relax that much in bondage that he actually falls asleep, even when he's wrapped up like a package.

On Wednesday, I'm bringing Tight to the dentist. He hasn't been to a dentist for many, many years, and his teeth are looking worse for wear. He needs them checked, and hopefully fixed. He really doesn't like dentists, so he needs my push to actually be able to go. I booked the appointment for him, and I'm comming with him. He is mine, and just like I would take a horse to the vet if it was sick, I feel a responsibility towards Tight as well. One takes care of one's property, after all. :)

Transfer complete

I've transfered the blog from my vanilla e-mail account to an account I only use for kink purposes. I had hidden the blog fairly well back where it used to be, but I still worried that someone googling my vanilla e-mail or name might come accross it. That should no longer be a danger. :)

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Changing accounts

I'm currently working on moving this blog to a different Blogger account. The one I've been using up 'till now, is also used with lots of vanilla activities. I prefer to keep my kink and vanilla life separate, so that's why I'm moving it. If the blog is down occationally in the last few days, do not worry. I'll have it back up and running again in no time.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Sub = fuck toy (fun for me, not as fun for him)

The new toys I told you about in my previous entry have seen some use. I just love the nipple clamps, and so does Tight. They are sweet and lovely when I first put them on him, and quickly progress to damn painful if I don't remove them quickly. And ofcourse pain is something I enjoy inflicting once in a while. :)

The strap-on hasn't seen it's intended use yet. Tight just isn't well enough, and we have realised his ass need some serious training before it can handle anything that large. We played last weekend, and reached a new first: He was able to come with something up his ass. Previously, it's been too much of a distraction to do any good. He also told me that he sometimes struggles to come because he feels ashamed or self-concious. I want to work on that, perhaps by taking away more controll from him.

We have used it for something else, though. I tied Tight down on the bed, with a blindfold and gag, and put the strap-on on him. His dick wasn't locked away, and it was getting a bit in the way. I worked around it, though, wrapping it in a towel and shoving it out in away. Then I rode the strap-on until I had a great orgasm. He didn't get to see, he didn't get any real pleasure from it, all he got was my thighs straddling him and the sounds of my orgasm. He was my sex-matrass, my toy to use as I wished. Will absolutely do that again.

I am getting somewhat frustrated these days, though. There seems to never be enough time for anything. Even when we have a whole afternoon and evening, it's typically 6 or 7 pm before we even get started. We can't be any quicker either, we need to work and eat after all. By 10 or 11 pm we are usually pretty tired and ready to sleep. And those are the good days. Mostly, we don't have the time to see eachother. Spring is always a busy time for me, and this year more than ever. I'm doing school stuff, applying for jobs, trying to work fulltime-ish and planning my wedding all at the same time. That doesn't leave much time for BDSM...

What I want is what I see in the pictures on my Tumblr stream. I want submission, closeness, him giving himself to me. When we do have time together, I usually just default to teasing and sexual stuff, because it's easier and more immediatly pleasurable (at least for me). So I'm just a Top, not a Dom. A somewhat controlling and demanding Top, true... :P But still... I want that submission, the giving and recieving. Soon.