Thursday, February 27, 2014

Our version of tease and denial, also known as edging

I'm holding him and he's holding me, as he lies on top of me. He used to have this idea that subs couldn't be on top, but I've shown him otherwise. There's no doubt in either of us, who's in controll of whom.

We're making out, wildly, can't get enough of eachother. I can feel his cock against my thighs, teasing my lips just a little, as we grind against one another. I forcefully drag my nails up his back and over his shoulders, and I can feel his gasps and labored breathing against my face and mouth. I grab his collar and drag him even closer towards me, making him kiss me again. His lower lip gets caught between my teeth, and I bite down on it. Hard enough for some serious pain, but not enough to cause any bleeding. At this point, he's so turned on, the pain doesn't bother him much. In fact, it turns him on, because he knows that hurting him is something I love.

I push him away from me. He grabs the condom layed out next to the bed and puts it on. We've done this enough times now for him to know the drill. I reach for his dick and slip it inside of me. We both gasp at that first entry, remembering again how very, very good it feels to fuck. A few shallow thrusts, to further lubricate my pussy, and I use the time to gently flick at his nipples. They are bascially like "on"-buttons, turning him on even more. Just the faintest touch makes him grasp, his eyes rolling up into his head, his hips thrust forward involuntarily. As I like being the one in controll, his involuntary movements turn me on even more. He's definitely not the one in charge.

The next few (very few) minutes are spent making him hornier and hornier. I put my legs up on his shoulders, and feel him pushing his cock deep into me. I grab his collar, kiss him, fondle him, bite him, and over all: Play with his nipples. And not just some pretty petting, but serious grabs and twists. The goal is to get him to the edge. The edge where he KNOWS that just a thrust or two would make him come. Then, and only then, may he ask my permission to come.

"Please, may I come?"
I laugh at him, "of course not!". He lies perfectly still inside of me, waiting for the edge to receide. "Your orgasm is mine. I own it. Of course you may not come!" I smile at him, and start flicking at his nipples again. Too soon for his tastes, he's barely gotten back off the edge, but he can't help but respond to it. His hips start moving again, and he groans.
Another handfull of thrusts, while I'm pulling at his nipples.
"Please, please."
"No!", I say, forcefully. "But I enjoy hearing you beg. Just like I enjoy denying you." Another few seconds of cooldown, and again I start him back up. Way too soon. His eyes close, there's almost nothing left of the evolved humanbeing. This is just primitive sex. And just enough D/s to restrain him.
"Oh, please!"
He collapses on my chest, his breathing is more like sobs. "Thank you!", he whispers passionately.
I give him a bit longer now, and change the possition of my legs a bit, before pulling his head down towards my face. As we kiss, our hips start to move again, and when I let him up he's well on his way towards a new edge. When I grab his nipples this time, pulling them down towards me, he's suddenly right there on the edge.
"Please, may I please come."
"No, my little fucktoy. You may NOT come." After ensuring that he's moved away from the endge, I suddenly use my nails on his back again. This time really hurting him, and forcing his hips to thrust, moving his dick as far into me as it will go.
"Fuck me!!", I growl at him, as I scratch him again. "Fuck!"
And he bravely fucks on, and on, knowing that the likelyhood of me ever answering "yes" to his question is very, very slim. And we both love it.

Over the past couple of weeks, we've replayed a version of this scenario countless times. Sometimes several times per day. Mostly, he doesn't get to come. I let him continue to play on the edge for as long as he wants, pulling him up there and letting him down as the whim takes me. Usually he gets too sore to continue within 15-30 minutes, but his mind is still screaming at him to do it again. And again. Because he's SO turned on. We don't count them, but I bet he edges 50 times during each session, at least.

I don't push him much, because I don't need to. He pushes himself, and when he thinks he really can't take anymore, he begs me to stop him. Once he starts begging, I typically edge him a couple of times more, just to show him who's in charge, before letting him go. Sometimes, I've sat my wet pussy down over his face and had him lick me, and then made him edge again by jerking off. No cumming, of course, unless I say so.

I've given him a couple of ruined orgasms this way, having him hold still, pull out or in other ways stopping all stimulus just at the right moment. I've also permitted him a few orgasms. Typically one or two per week, but sometimes more. Once I made him come three times in a day! His orgasms are only permitted after edging countless times, which makes them MUCH stronger than if he'd just come the first time around.

He never know beforehand whether I will answer yes or no when he pleads to come. 99% of the time, it's a no, so when he hears me say "Yes. COME!", it becomes so much more powerfull. He really can't hold it back, some kind of primitive lizard-creature takes over his brain. He comes, and moans and shakes and sweats, the orgasm lasting many times longer than it normally would. Then he collapses over me, thanking me profusely, completely worn out and so sore that it hurts just to pull himself out.

I love denying him. I also love making hime come. His orgasms are mine, just like his dick, and his head and the rest of his body is mine. I love being in controll of him. And he loves it too, all of it. That's what makes tease and denial so awesome!

Monday, February 3, 2014

First attempts at figging (shoving a ginger root up the submissive's ass)

Saint and I have been playing for about two months now, and I keep comming up with new things I want to do with him. About a week ago, I tried figging for the first time.

For those who don't know, figging is the practice of placing a prepared ginger root into a body orifice, with the intention of causing an interesting sensation. Most commonly into the ass like a small butt plug, though I've read about it being pushed into the vagina and even into the uretra. The descriptions I've read vary from "mild tingling sensation" to "felt like my ass was being poked with a burning torch", so I had no idea how Saint would react. As it turns out, he was more in the "burning torch" cathegory.

He'd gotten fairly used to things being shoved up his ass already, as I finger him and fuck him with my strap-on regularly. However, he was prepared for the ginger being more painful than just a regular finger. When I first put it into him, he was thus fairly nervous and clenched up. As it turns out, clenching makes it hurt more. That made him tense up even more, and what we had was a vicious circle.

I took it out after a minute or two, but he kept complaining that his ass really, really hurt for several minutes after that. It kind of freaked me out, as I didn't feel in control of the process. I'd never read anything about any product that would lessen the stinging sensation, but I used some basic deduction and got lucky:

The burn in your mouth after eating spicy food (and ginger is basically a spicy food product, and the inside of the ass is comparable to the inside of the mouth) can be reduced by drinking something containing oil/fat (like tea or a milk-product). I know it's got something to do with the burning spice being oily in the first place, and you remove like with like (which is why you need soap, which is fatty, to remove grease from your fingers, whilst mud can be removed with just enough water). Now, I'm not a chemist, so I don't know the details here, or even if my understanding is right... So don't take my word on it. If you want to try this at home, please do your own research.

Anyway, I quickly took some regular vegetable oil, lubed up my hand and used my fingers to rub oil into his ass. It seemed to help conciderably, and the burning sensation went down to a tolerable level.

After cooling down and talking about it, I whiped away most of the oil and we tried again. This time, he was more prepared for what was coming and managed to relax more. Relaxing, plus the remainder of the oil, made the burning more bareable. The pain level kept going up for the first three-five minutes, and then staying at that level for as long as I kept the root in (13 minutes in total). For the final five minutes, as he seemed fairly in control of himself and more comfortable with the process (though still in conciderable pain), I tried wiggling the root around, slapping his butt and generally trying to see if I could make the root hurt more. Like before, it hurt the most when he clenched his muscles, but he was prepared for it and able to bare it. Still, it was very painful, and he was close to tears several times.

Figging is truly painful, at least for Saint, and in my opinion not something to be done for a lark or as an element of light and fun play. We will probably try again though, because I enjoy hurting him. Next time it will be with a slimmer and longer piece of root, but with the ful understanding that this is ment to hurt. Of course, there's something so lovely in having a guy lie down and give himself over to you in such a way. Especially when he knows how much it will hurt, and how little enjoyment he will get from it. The fact that he willingly submits to it anyway, because he know you take pleasure from his pain... That is just amazing, and fills me with such gratitude. :)

Technical update

I've updated the Pseudonymes page, re-organizing it and hopefully making it easier to use. It's ment as a tool for those who're just discovering this blog, and for those who're reading old entries. It explains who these various people are, and how they relate to me. I you click on a name, the link will take you to the entries tagged with that name (at least for the top handful of entries, so far). Thought that might be useful. :)