Astronomy

 The problem with comets, and also the good thing about comets, is that they go away for a while before they come blazing back. When they've just left, you keep thinking about them and all the recent experiences you've had together. It feels hot and fiery and intense. 

After a while, once they grow more distant, you don't think about them quite so frequently or with quite such passion. You send the occasional message, but when the respons time is long that isn't enough to fan the flames either. And so the comet grows fainter and fainter... But it still only takes a single "ping" to remind you of all the excitement and fun you've had.

At some point the comet's orbit has reached it's apocenter, and will start it's journey back towards you. (Apocenter is the point on its trajectory where an unspecified object, like a comet, is the furthest from the body it's circulating. Apogee is used to describe this when something is circling the Earth, aphelion is used when describing something orbiting the Sun. And yes, I had to look it up. Knew there was a term for it. Pericenter is the opposite of apocenter, by the way.)

Anyhow, yes, the comet will be coming back around again. That doesn't mean he's close by, no he's still extremely far away.. But for every interaction you can tell that the comet is approaching. And that.. THAT is something to look forward to. 

Respite

Complaining, arguing and threatening with legal actions made our landlord willing to negotiate. Luckily. So we aren't moving this summer after all. We've got the apartment for another year, with the option to leave sooner if we want to. I'm sooo relived, you have no idea! 

Unwelcome news

Our landlord has decided to sell this property, so we're being forced to move. Again. It'll be our 4th move in just over 3,5 years and it really, really sucks. We'll probably need to be out by late August. I was so hoping for some stability now, both for Saint and I and for our kids.. But no. That just wasn't to be. 

I'm just devastated, but I'm trying to keep it together. I know I'll need to plan most of the move, find us a new place to live, coordinate movers (if we can afford them) and/or friends and family to help us out, coordinate with the old and the new land lord and.. everything. Saint is great at the practical stuff, and he's a good organizer, but I'm a better coordinator. 

The kids don't know yet. They're so young, they can barely comprehend "in a few days", the idea of having to move out of here in 2,5 months wouldn't make any sense to them. We'll tell them eventually, of course, but no reason to upset and worry them yet. I've got my fingers crossed that we'll be able to find a new place soon as well, so we know where we'll be headed come august. This sort of uncertainty is really bad for my mental health, and I know it worries Saint as well. 

In other news, I got sterilized two days ago. It's quite an invasive procedure in women, so I'm still feeling pretty beat up.. But hopefully I'll get better soon. At least this way, we won't have any unplanned pregnancies on top of everything.