Before I started T, I'd read up on female ejaculation. I'd tried to do it, both alone and with partners, and never experienced anything even close. I've had plenty of orgasms while receiving g-spot stimulation (though I always need something on the clit too), so I knew I was in the right spot.. It just didn't happen for me. I assumed I couldn't.
I was wrong. Turns out, all I needed was bottom growth.
I don't know why this changed, but I'm guessing bottom growth affects the entire clitoral complex and not just the tiny external part. After all. the penis of young boys grows during their testosterone-driven puberty.. Makes sense if the same happens to the clit too, once testosterone is added.
Anyway, I felt something start changing after.. I guess about 6 months on T. Not squirting in itself, but the potential for it. Then I started getting small amounts of liquid, not squirting but trickling out of me. I realized I could put pressure on my g-spot and basically empty myself of that liquid, once I was worked up enough. It was a very different thing than orgasm.
Then Novice started working on me, and things changed. A lot. They use a very intense, pinpoint vibrator, called Zumio E, directly on my clit. And as I squeal and giggle and try not to squirm, I loose myself in the sensation. So overwhelmed, I no longer have conscious control over my body. That's when it happens; I ejaculate. I ejaculate from external clit stimulus only.
Each time they've done this, it's been easier for us to get there, and I've produced more liquid. The last time, they did something new: They kept pushing me. They kept pushing, and I kept ejaculating. First five times in short succession, three trickling and two proper squirts with some pressure behind them. After a couple of minutes break, they continued, making me ejaculate another four times. Two of those fairly big squirts too. There might have been some small ones in between here, but we both sort of lost count.
I was stunned, I had no idea this was even possible. I thought that stuff only happened in porn movies... That a vulva could keep squirting, with pressure and all, and keep squirting, and keep squirting. Apparently, it's not just in porn. To me, it's also intensely gender. I fluids get involuntarily squirted out of my genitals, if I get stimulated the right way. A lot of fluid. That in itself, is slightly gender euphoric, and to me it's also really hot.
Squirting, or ejaculating, is also really different from orgasm for me. Whilst ejaculation is extremely intense, and that loss of control is both scary, sexy and thrilling, is isn't really pleasurable in itself. It's in some ways a release of pressure, but it doesn't give those waves of pleasure that I typically get from an orgasm. There's no ecstatic peak.
Novice is the first person to make me squirt. They're also the first person to ever give me an orgasm, without any direct involvement from me since I was a teenager (back then, I was sometimes able to orgasm from fingering + oral). Quite a few people have been able to finger me to orgasm, while I use a vibrator on my clit myself. Novice has done it with the Zumio E alone, I wasn't touching myself. In many ways, that feels more intimate than the squirting. There's a trust there, that I've never had with anyone else. I'm ABLE to trust now, unlike ever before.
I'm excited for the future with Novice. Who knows what other sexual discoveries we'll make or developments we'll have, as time goes by.
