The way I get turned on has changed. It's been a very gradual change, so I haven't noticed until now, but looking back to before testosterone it's obvious:
I'm more impatient now, and much, much more visual. Where I before enjoyed reading smut, including long novellas with erotic content, I don't have the patience for it anymore. If I want to come, I want to come NOW (or within 15 minutes max). Not in 45 minutes or more.
The first 8-12 months on T, I was a roaring caldera of horny. Absolutely anything could turn me on, and once I was turned on I couldn't turn off again without coming first. Like a volcanic hot-spot that just keeps going until it explodes. After 12 months, it's calmed down significantly, but I'm still more horny and easier to turn on than I was before.
However, most striking now is that the WAY I turn on is different. I'm more visual now. While erotic art could fascinate me before, very, very few still images actually did anything for me in terms of turn-on. Now they do. I can find a specific picture of a bondage position, for example, and feel turned on immediately. Porn, in video format, also does more for me now than before. Before, I used to be focused solely on the audio. And whilst audio is still important, visual is has much more of an impact than before.
It's strange how the "typically male" stuff, may just be hormonal after all. It's not society, it's not brain composition, it's not genes... It's hormones.
Body is weird. I love it.
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